Today was a GREAT day for Brinley! Brinley weighs 4lbs 10oz and today she opened her eyes a ton, and wiggled all over her isolete. They've been giving her a diuretic the past couple of days and it has taken so much fluid off her little body, she's finally starting to look like my baby again and now instead of 3 double chins she only has 2. HA! The Nurse Practitioner told us this morning that he heard a murmur so he ordered an Echo just to be sure her the clip on her PDA had opened up, the Echo showed everything to look good. The NP said she does have a murmur but it's nothing to worry about. Brinley is up to 15cc of breast milk every 3 hours and is tolerating her feeds very well, the little stinker hasn't pooped in over a week they've been giving her suppositories once or twice a day but still no poop. He's not worried about it and just says when it's time she'll poop.
Monday, May 11, 2009
God always provides
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Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mothers Day
Today is my 1st Mothers Day, It's a really special day for me I've waited what feels like an eternity to have a baby and now I finally have one. Everyone has been so sweet I've got a bunch of texts, calls, emails all wishing me a Happy Mothers Day and telling me what a great mom I'll be and how lucky Brinley is to have me for a mom. I honestly don't know what to say when people say things like that I just want to ask them "what is it you see in my that tells you I'm going to be a good mom?" I honestly don't know what they see in me that makes them say those sweet things. I have so many questions and insecurities about bringing Brinley home and taking care of her I'm so afraid of failing. I know I don't have to be perfect but I want to be the best mom I can be. I can't wait until the day we leave the hospital with her in the back seat and get to bring her home for the first time but at the same time I'm scared to death. It's like what do we do with her now? I don't have any idea, I hope it comes natural if not we might be in trouble. Some of the things I'm most looking forward to doing is rocking her to sleep, breast feeding (yes, I've been pumping for 2 months now) bathing her, cuddling with her, singing to her, reading to her, just watching her as she sleeps, getting up in the middle of the night with her, changing her into her many cute outfits, pushing her in a stroller, grocery shopping with her. I just can't wait... I feel so blessed today, I know now why God hasn't given me a baby sooner. God was making me wait so he could bless me with Brinley, she is so beautiful and perfect. I'm certainly not the same person that entered the hospital on February 25th, you can't go through something like this and not grow. I've grown in my faith, I've had to. There is no way I could have gotten through some of the days in the NICU with God, he has held my hand and dried my tears since day one.
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Saturday, May 9, 2009
First time visitors
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Friday, May 8, 2009
I've neglected to blog the last few days, it's not that I haven't wanted to I just haven't had time to. I'm not going to go back and walk through the past few days it actually a time I don't want to remember but I know my heart will never let me forget.
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Saturday, May 2, 2009
Ambulance transfer FINALLY!
Brinley weighed 4lbs 6 ounces today I love her more with each passing second my heart is just filled with so many hopes and dreams for her and us. I just can't wait to bring her home, I just feel it getting nearer and nearer and I get so anxious and my mind just runs wild with all the things I'm going to be able to do with her. Top on my list is just to hold her for endless hours and kiss her sweet face and I've just been dying to kiss her little toes too! I've already noticed I am really selfish with her, I know I have to share her but I just really want her all to myself. It's funny that I'm talking about it getting closer to time for her to come home when she's actually going a further distance away right now. We are on Interstate 540 following a Angels One ambulance to Children's Hospital in Little Rock, the decision was made Thursday to fly her to St.Louis Children's hospital on Friday morning but because of the storms they couldn't fly in, the re-evaluated the flight 3 times on Friday and then they called it off and rescheduled for this morning but the weather hasn't improved any so they couldn't fly in again today. Dr.Linn really wanted her to be transferred today and didn't want to wait another day to pass because her Chest x-ray didn't look great and her blood gas wasn't good either. He called Children's Hospital in Little Rock and asked if they could fly down and pick her up and they couldn't fly either because of the storms but they could do a ambulance transport so they arrived around 10pm tonight and we are right behind her in our car. I had prepared myself yesterday morning for her transfer and when it didn't go through I was just devastated I just wanted it done and over with so I didn't have to worry about it anymore but he just wasn't meant to be. I cried earlier before Angel One arrived but Brian told me I needed to be strong and I think I was, I think it's pretty cool that I'm just right behind you that makes me a little more comfortable and I'm really looking forward to finding out what the specialist at Children's Hospital has to say about her. I'm praying that they agree with Dr.Linn's diagnosis and that nothing else is wrong.
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